It's been a quiet week in here. Well sort of. My oldest niece came to visit on Sunday and stayed until Tuesday. She got tired of the chaos at her dad's place and asked to come stay with me. I don't mind but I do hope it doesn't become a habit. It is tiring caring for two people even when one of them can care for themselves. It's hard to entertain two people with two different personalities.
Last night I said no to that little face. Well he is a bit older now but still, I said no. Why is it so hard to say no to your own child? I didn't give in. He loves his music. He wanted music time but it was too late in the day for it. He lays in his bed with his headphones and his pile of CD's and just listens to his music. He would listen to music all day long if I let him. But I can't. It makes me feel bad. I feel like he's being neglected and not stimulated enough. Then hearing him cry for two hours didn't help matters either.
Being a parent is so hard!!
He's home again this weekend. His dad cancelled on Wednesday. Something about working on the weekend. I didn't listen to the details as I was too upset. Not as upset as the last time he did that but upset enough. More like dissappointed for Aaron, and for the change of plans involving my quiet time. I don't get as much done when Aaron is around. I have to stick to routine and watch that clock and make sure everything is done and needs are met. Then there's no energy for me to do what I want to do.
*sigh*
Why the big smile in the photo? His dad and I had taken him to a pet shop at a mall in Montreal. He heard the birds twittering and chirping and he just loved it and laughed himself silly. I don't think we'd ever heard him laugh so much. It was cute as hell.
Last night I said no to that little face. Well he is a bit older now but still, I said no. Why is it so hard to say no to your own child? I didn't give in. He loves his music. He wanted music time but it was too late in the day for it. He lays in his bed with his headphones and his pile of CD's and just listens to his music. He would listen to music all day long if I let him. But I can't. It makes me feel bad. I feel like he's being neglected and not stimulated enough. Then hearing him cry for two hours didn't help matters either.
Being a parent is so hard!!
He's home again this weekend. His dad cancelled on Wednesday. Something about working on the weekend. I didn't listen to the details as I was too upset. Not as upset as the last time he did that but upset enough. More like dissappointed for Aaron, and for the change of plans involving my quiet time. I don't get as much done when Aaron is around. I have to stick to routine and watch that clock and make sure everything is done and needs are met. Then there's no energy for me to do what I want to do.
*sigh*
Why the big smile in the photo? His dad and I had taken him to a pet shop at a mall in Montreal. He heard the birds twittering and chirping and he just loved it and laughed himself silly. I don't think we'd ever heard him laugh so much. It was cute as hell.
For spf: an oldie.
All photos from October 2001.
Have a nice weekend!!
7 comments:
Love the photo's of Aaron as a baby what a cutiepie !!!
Dont even give Suzette another thought, the nerve...you have enough to take care of without having to do her washing.
Take care of yourself ok
Diane
I have been so worried about you. Not hearing from you is driving me nuts. I've been working 8 hour days so I don't have much free time. Please let me know if you ever received the books that I sent you. I'm so glad that you are saying "no" and setting boundaries!
Please take good care!
Hugs and love, T
Good for you for standing up for yourself! And, yeah, saying no to one's kid is darn hard/painful. As you said, being a parent is so hard.
Look at that tongue! What a cutie pie!
the pics of Aaron are precious! and Im glad you told her you wouldnt be doing her laundry! You do have enough to do...she probably wouldnt have brought her own soap anyway!
If anything you'd think she'd be offering to help you out with your laundry or something since your allowing her to use your machine and hydro etc.. Oh and yea you have so much to already do might be a nice gesture to give you a break some way! Shhesh the nerve! Good for you for standing up to her.
Aaron is so cute as a baby. I'm sorry you can't always count on your Ex for that much needed and deserved break! I hope he makes it this week :)
I'm happy for you that you stood up for yourself and didn't allow yourself to be used! Good for you!
Sorry Aaron's dad cancelled though - I'm sure your alone time is very cherished by you and then you had to miss out!
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