This post has nothing to do with eggs, however someone in this house turned twelve today. I snapped this picture along with many others this morning before school. I love that he's smiling. It's hard to get him to smile for photos. He's only smiling here because he was in a very jovial mood.
I'm saving his presents for Saturday so we can enjoy them together. His papa is coming to get him for a birthday sleepover surprise at his place.
Today I sent Aaron off to school with a few extra hugs and kisses before he left. His father and I went shopping and had lunch together to celebrate the day we became parents.
I decided today to stop wallowing in self pity, although I have been doing a lot of that the last 2 weeks thinking of all the things Aaron can't do. Instead I thought it was time to come up with new traditions for Aaron's birthday. I thought it would be an interesting idea to think of this as a second Mother's Day to make the day more meaningful to me. I grieve every birthday, and any other holiday, for the Aaron that isn't.
Every year for the last 11 years I made a cake for Aaron's birthday. A cake which he has never eaten. This year I just bought just a slice of cake at the grocery store and enjoyed it at home in his presence. I forgot the candle.
I love this boy of mine. I live for this boy of mine. When I saw this picture this morning it hit me full force the magnitude of his life and how much he has depended on me for his very survival. I have kept this boy alive through determination, perseverance and love.
Love took a small baby with not very much odds of making it past his 1st birthday and giving him 12 birthdays.
Thank you Aaron for giving me the 12 most love-filled years of my life!!
Happy Birthday Aaron!!
Thursday, September 15, 2011
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Happy Birthday Aaron!
And happy mother's day, Laura. :)
Such a beautiful post, for a beautiful 12 yr old, from a beautiful mother.
Happy 12th birthday Aaron.
In every year there are joys to cherish! You should treasure each and every moment. Life is short.......count the joys, not the tears, Laura! Aaron has come a long way! Perhaps not like other boys his age, but a long way from the way many thought he originally would be (or wouldn't be).
Happy Birthday to you both! Some days can be so hard, but it sounds as if you are making lemonade with your many gifts. Keep it up, there are many thinking of you.
Happy Birthday Aaron! and hugs to you and Mama!
happy birthday to sweet, sweet aaron. and happy birth day to you laura.
Laura, This is my very first visit to your blog and how I found you I'll never Know!! However, I am the Grandmama to a special needs Grandson, James who will be 4 on Oct. 7th.!! Your post sounds so familiar because I hear you in my daughter's posts concerning James...your tears, regrets for what wasn't or never will be yet all the love you have that has given you so much pleasure along with the pain. My I direct you to
http://jumpinforjames.blogspot.com and you can see my grandson' story. She doesn't update as much as much as she used to but you can most definitely relate to her emotions.
My James was born premature and has Cerebral Palsy. I could not find a post that told Your sweet Aaron's diagnosis.
My prayers are for you and your son especially as you raise him as a single mother. I don't know how you do it, sweetheart!
I hope to keep up with your blog and get to know Aaron's story.
Blessings
Gmama Jane
Good morning Laura,
I am Carol's friend Susie. Yesterday was my twin daughter's 24th birthday. They were born premature and very tiny. Yes, we too have had many challenges since their birth. I share many of your feelings, especially on their birthdays. I am so proud of the young women they have become in spite of tremendous odds. It has been quite a roller coaster ride, as I look back. I accept these feelings now and it makes it easier for me to weather my pain and I can rejoice more when things are going better. The little things in my day are more precious now. I did celebrate a Mother's Day too yesterday. that is a good idea. After all, this is motherhood greatly magnified!
happy Sunday! Susie
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